The Heart

My heart has felt so much in the past week… My grandfather died and I have been overwhelmed by all of the feelings that come with the death of a loved one. A sudden death.

For 6 days I felt pain and sadness. On the seventh I felt love, overflowing.

There is only one woman in this world that I love. There is only one person who I will go to all lengths for. There is one person that I will call my wife, and her name is Kelsie Shea Youngman.

This weekend, through all the pain, sorrow, sadness, and hurt, Kelsie taught me more about what love means than I had ever known. Her words were few, but her actions were many. Though many, they were not large. Nothing extravagant, but small actions with unimaginable depth. It was her consistency, sincerity, her selflessness, and her persistence, -her love- that have proved to me, again and with more confidence than ever before, that she will make an incredible wife and an excellent mother.

I am overwhelmed with love.

God has answered our prayers, and has blessed us with a relationship that will become a Holy Union, in His name.


Father, you have entrusted me with much. Help me in my fight for a righteous, honest, selfless, lifelong, happy, and blessed love. Guide our steps, and give us grace sufficient for trying times. You have given, and you can take away… Take everything else, before you take her. And if it’s not too much to ask… in 70 years, can you take us both at the same time? Am I thinking too far ahead? I just want what’s best- help your child out. Preesh.


I love you Kelsie Shea.



To everyone reading this, our God is a God who gives us what’s best, so long as we wait for Him to give it.

Don’t lose hope. Be faithful with what you have. God is love. Love is life. God is life.



My heart has been filled with a love that replaces pain. A love that comes from God and flows through His favorite daughter (no offense females around the world).


3 thoughts on “The Heart

  1. Hi! I am so glad that you are feeling more love than pain these days. I am so sorry about the death of your grandfather! I’m also glad that you have Kelsie to comfort you and love you-that must be such an encouraging relationship. I hope you are doing well today. I find myself struggling to find joy in days sometimes when I am so overwhelmed and burdened…but knowing that I have so much more than others helps me put things in perspective. Is that a strange way to find joy? To be content in what I have just because of what others don’t have? It doesn’t really sound right. Hmmmmmm. Anyways, just some thoughts. You have good thoughts.

    • Thanks Lia 🙂 It is so nice to have her in times in like these, and in times where the sun’s shining, and I feel on top of the world. No, I don’t think it’s bad to find joy in the realization of how much you have, compared to how little other people have. I think it’s just a perspective of remembering. You had it all along, and you used to be content, and joyful, in the things you had. When you see other people lacking those things, it causes you to remember that you have them, and again, that brings you joy.

      Keep on remember the things God has blessed you with. And each time you see people with less, share. How’s that sound? 🙂

  2. Yeah, I like that. 🙂
    Well, I’m in class…so I should probably stop blog reading and get to attention paying. Haha.
    I hope you have a BEAUTIFUL day!!

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